leona lewis- happy

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything

Don’t you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free

I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can’t let go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear

But all these days
They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces
Different place
Get me out of here


I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I’m just trying to be happy

Oh, happy
Oh

So when it turns that I can see???
This rope??
Victim??
Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy.

ive just heard leona song..n it so touching
diz video is dedicated to those who r loving som1 but in the end u r not the person who r going to live forever with ur love...

url: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9c-4z5H43F0

u give me too many reason....

babe..
why you give me too many reasons...
reasons that hardly for me to believe..

babe...
everytime you give me such a reason..
my heart, my mind,my instinct always tell me that its a lie...

babe..
i dont know who's right or who's wrong...
im in delusion right now..

babe..
when you facing with a serious problems you text me and you felt so upset with that...
but when i met you like there's nothing had happened to you...

babe..
i hope you are not lying..

i just wished that you didnt actually gave me a fake hopes towards you..
please dont...
:'( ...

after 5pm tomorrow..

after 5pm.. absolute fredom will be mine.....

after 5pm.. i can do anything i want...

after 5pm.. i'll become wIld...

hahaha...

but now...

i still have 16hours and 30minutes to go...

goodbye 2nd year 1st sem...

welcome 2nd year 2nd sem...

going back home 2 my hometown n waitin 4 my parents 2 comeback from mecca...

miss them soo much..

wah!

sungguh enak rsanya bla paper equity abis...

tp hati masi lg resah gelisah..

haih...

adakah aku akn repeat paper nie?

tepuk dada tnya slera la...

rsanya part 3 ni mcm berantu bg ak...

teringat zaman2 dlu kat kedah...

haih~

benci la...

tp apa blei bwt,...

aku ndak kesa aku repeat...

cuma...

aku bwt paents aku x happy la...

waaa...

sedi...

sory mom n dad...

ive dissapointed u..

i did da same mistake again...

waaa....:'(

things that i hate the most!

aLl diz WhiLe ive been trying tO IgNorE thaT thIngs FrOm cOntrOllIng mySelf,

but No MatTer How Hard I try,

ThaT thINgs KeeP proVokInG mE,

Im In A CrItIcAL sItuAtiOn ryte noW if I JuSt LeT IT PoSeSS mySelF

I DonT knOW HoW to GeT rID thIs THinGS...

it sUffErs me A loT....

I cAnt StanD iT sOmeTimEs...

FeEls Like I wAnNa GiVe Up everYthin thAt ive goT,

BeCAusE oF thAt thIng...

WhEn WE LoVE sOmeBody A lOt..

we oWez ThinK abOut tHem..

nO mAtter How Buzy We r..

We StiLl caN tHink Of the PerSon We LOve EveN jusT a SecOnd

dAt sHow How Much WE LoVE TheM so MucH..

eVerYDaY we MiZs ThEm

n hOpinG thaT tHeY wIlL MIzs us ToO..

Im StrOng Enough TO facE eveRytHIn..

bUt WheN it ComeS to MY loVE sToRy...

i Can B SoO fuckIn EMo..

i DuNno Wat TO do WIt MY liFE anYmore..

becaUse i GiVe ol mA heaRt jusT 4 my LOvE....

n If i LosE it....its SucH a GreAt pAin that i wiLl taKe..

its like ive bEen STab By a 1000 swords...

n thats y...the things that i hate the most is LOVING SOMEONE!!

"I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU"

BUT SOMEHOW....WE CANT RUN FROM LOVING SOMEONE

COZ WE ARE MEANT TO LOVE SOMEONE...

WE ARE NOT CREATED TO BE ALONE...

RomIe n JuLiE (^o^)v

LuCu nIe SmLm..
berBorak GnA HANDPhONE ngan KwN tp deKat JA..
kwn aq berada d ats ak lak kat bwH..mcm romeo merayu sma c JUliet utk TurUn BWh..
ndak c julIet maw turun2 baH..
adedEh.. (-.^)v
astaga..buang tebiat kn smlm..keh3
tp SyokLa jugak..new xperience org bilang..kui2 :p

tgah syok2 becerita tba2 dtg pacik tua nei..
adeh..malatOp jantungz aq taw..
dtg2 ja trus gtaw ak yg dia maw g KL..
my mind fuLl wiTh QuestiOn mark(????) tyme 2..
pa kaitan ngan AQ...adeh!

pnya scary smlm..takut ja pacik tuh bwt somthin ngan aq
ak ready2 maw betindak da if somthin happen..
huhu..but tHanx Ngan Mr. J psl bg Teman ak balik walaupun dlm TlePon Ja.
haha..

palui2 woO..nasib baik aq teda bwa dompet..just bwa HP ja..
huhu..
waA~ NDAK LAMA LG FINAL EXAM..
TAKOTTTTTTT~~~~~ (o.O)//

peter answer!?

ITS SUX..!!!
i raTher kEep It Than Say It xTuAlLy bCoz for Me its noT imPorTAnte at AlL
U haVe Other COMMITMENT n U'VE tolD me dat U cANt Hide any SeCRET fRom Dat PerSOn..
So Ive mAde A deCisIOn 2 NOT BE SOO OVER WIT U...
DO U KNOE HoW SuFFer Dat PERSON was AftER u'VE told The THINGS daT sHOUld NOt N NEVER b ToLd to OTHERS in UR LIfe..it AffeCts NOT only U BuT ME and ALSO dat PErSON..

IM SOrrY..I waS wRong!
I drAg u inTO dis BUlLshiT siTuaTiON
iF I wEre In daT peRsON Shoe..
I fEEL sO UPSeT wiT wat Uve Done
n dAts Y i TrY so HArd 2 Make ThinGs Back To nOrmaL
I try 2 KeEp SileNCe On ThiS MatTEr buT u JuSt KEep ProVokiNG me..

I haTE to BE eMO
bcOz Its JUsT WeAken myself,
i HOpe U'll Understand
never turning back..wat past is past
it can only b a history..
i am ur HISTORY 2...

I FeEl so UPsEt!
foR tHosE wHo r InvOLve In diZ mAttER..Im SoO SorRy
i KnOE its NoT enOugh 2 Say SorRY...
but I'll TrY 2 MakE tHingS baCk To NoRmaL..
MARK MY WORDs!



wriTten By:
-prof. de souza-

SOnGs = MEmoRy

1. HeadlInes-> spice girls = mY 8 bespren (dick,oliver,haryz,johan,azlie,adam,danny n ashley)
2. the way i are-> timbaland feat keri hilson = my memory at UiTM kedah :)
3. irreplaceable-> beYonce = JoHan razeRry..dia slalu nyanyi diz song dlu..wakaka
4. TOxiC-> BriTney spEars = daNnY..sora dia cm britney bla nyanyi..ekeke! bkn stu pujiAn ituh ok... :)
5. SinCe U bEen Gone & beHind TheSE hazel Eyes-> KelLy cLarKson = My Life tYme Form 5 dlu..adeh..
6. NeVer Had A dreAm ComE trUE-> S cLub 7 = ni lagu Tyme Sy masi sTill Pendek n kna ejek2 pendek dlu tyme form 1.. kui3
7. DEVoTiOn & DeSiRe-> BaysIde = lgu nie kalo tyMe2 Marah+ beNgaNg..hihi
8. im SticK wIth yoU-> PCD = Tyme Keja as a banquet d shang ri-la dlu...so sweet~
9. sWeetest GirL-> wYcleaf jean ft Akon = teringat BilIk B016 kat Kedah..
10. GeEk In The PinK-> jasoN mraz = triNgat d BilIk B013..RoOm yg ak rindu..waaa...:'(
11. tAtaPan CinTa-> cokLat sTrAwberi = semestinya amiR OT2...dia yg bg knal ak sma diz song...huhu :P
    
12. WomAniZer-> BrItneY sPears = fArah..rmbut dia sma mcm britney..huuu
13. BuTTons-> PCD = tyme ForM 6 (OrientatIon NIghT) :D
14. EasY-> Paula Deanda = kenanGan ngan geng2 MisTa SenOritA :)
    
15. BrEaK aPart heR Heart-> Good Charlotte = tyme SEM 4..:P
16. wHere'd You Go-> Fort MInor = orneldz kn..hahha
17. RiGhT RouNd-> Flo RidA = ni tyme sEm 2 Degree..tyme2 Jd LIAR..astaga!
    
18. SwEeT dReAms-> Beyonce = juan de fonte... lgu nie ja sy dgr bla bebual ngan dia..
19. i StAy In Love-> mAriah carey = lgu aq tyme EMo2..ekeke
20. NaGa Aida-> KirOrO = tyme keja d AirpOT
21. Andai Ku TAhu-> UNGU = my MOm...sbb e2 RInGtoNE hP dia..uhuhuh...sedi dgr lgu tuh..waaa
22. No BOundaRies-> krIss Allen = Syapiq sUksis sbb ak bg set ringtone nie bla dia koL..hee~
    

e2 la lgu2 yg slalu aq dgr..huhu..stiaP kali dgr...msti akn tringat kmu2 nie..huu..hope u guys will remember me oso..huhu

my tRip 2 IIUM~

today Aq P uIa..
cr CasES for EqUIty N trUsT,
betOlak Jam 12.30pM dr UitM n smpaI UiA jam 1.15pm la cmtuh..
b4 dat kmi smpat mkn Mc.D lg d WEt WorLD...kira maw mkn d kreta ja tApI x slEsa plak ba..
smpai2 ja d UiA..rsa Weird plak c lieya x pkai tuDung nie...ahaha... so KMi p Beli la slendang utk dia..RULeS Of UIa kn.."tuTup AUrAt" hee~
then kmi trus mencari cases yg tlah d tugaskn ole sIR JoHN ChUA..
huh~ aQ n da geng hengat CASES la kunun..skalinya ARTICLE on TRUST...paq it up boy~ grR!
menyampah la..patutla aq penin cr2 benda tuh d SkiTAr library...hum~
tp Kmi Dpt gak cr...yeayy! but there's 2 more cases Blom dpt...susa nie..so kmi BIARkn aja deyh!

Otw blek Ruma sEmpaT lg p mkn PAKLI seK 18...hehe..
my prEn c fendi ketagih maw mkn nasi ayam lemon..kuii3..
pAstuh kmi blek...yeayy!! selamat smpai ruma :P

btw..aq pnas ngan c JOHAN...ckp jnji maw jumpa d UIA..
tp kol2 lngsung ndak dpt..hum! dia slalu cmtuh..last minute misti ilang..DON LIKE IT!!

haPpY ~ (o_0)v

today toPic Aq pasl "soyA" tlaH d terIma dgn JayAnya oleH mDm HanafIAh..yeahh!
walauPun semasa aq mengutarakn pendapat ttg topic aq nie d tentang cket ole MdM tetapI aQ sanggup berJuang BErhabis-habisAn Nkkn topIc tuh..ehehe~ so last2 mdm tuh ckp Ok! yess!!!
so Now aq kna cr idEa cmna bg attract org Dgr PresentatIon AQ nie...hum~
td aftEr klAz BEl ak p kuar ngan dorg Suzie n amir OT..p tgK wyg 'SorRoRity ROw'.. jam 1.45pm muvie tuh start maka kmi kat bUkit Raja td jAm 11.45..gteww~
so semeNtara menunggu muvi tuh start kmi ceta2 la dlU psl keidupan tyme skolah dlu...adeh!!
ceriTa berulang ja ba tp SyiOK plak..aha!
mlm ni aq x taw plak maw bwt pa..hum~ maw stadi tp teda mood padahal aq ada 2 TEst lg t jumaat N sabtu nie..heshh!
x sabar nak exam woO~ hahaha...SEMANGAT!!!

Already GoNe

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I'm already gone,
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone,
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

WanTed~

Do U knoE this PerSon??
HAVe u EveR SeEn ThiS perSon??

If YeSs tHen U shOulD cOnTaCt us
on dis NuMbeR- (ling yi qi si wu yi liu er liu yi)

He's vEry DaNgeRoUs..!!
hE miGht KiLl You By just One LoOK!!

His nAme Is De SouzA~
if U can fInD diz GUy then WE shall give u
a sPeciaL REWARD!!

a Tin Of COKE or SOYA MilK...juST choOse ONE!
ehe~

sweet dreams

Every night I rush to my bed
With hopes that maybe I'll get a chance to see you
When I close my eyes I'm going out of my head
Lost in a fairytale, can you hold my hands and be my guide?

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

I mention you when I say my prayers
I wrap you around all of my thoughts
Boy you're my temporary high

I wish that when I wake up you're there
To wrap your arms around me for real
And tell me you'll stay by side

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Tattoo your name across my heart so it will remain
Not even death can make us part
What kind of dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you

* my song of the year*
haha.. =)

My Own StuPidiTy..

wat hav i done!..
ive done things beyond my limit
ive started all first without knowing the consequences

desire destroy me,
the innocent of me has gone,
im not myself anymore,
im not suppose to be like this,

i want to be different from others,
but now im same with them,
ive dissapointed peoples feeling towards me,
why? why im i doing these things?

how long can i stand with this feelin?,
i just wanna be me.. the real me!
but i cant run frOm my own sTupidity~
so sad.. :'(

warkah untuk mu~

Maaf, ku telah menyakitimu
Ku telah kecewakanmu
Bahkan ku sia-siakan hidupmu,
dan kubawa kau s'perti diriku
Walau hati ini penuh kedukaan
Menahan kesakitan ini..

stiap kali ku melihatmu,
rsa bersalah menghantui diriku,
patutkah aku berdiam diri,
patutkah aku mempedulikn perasaan org lain,

betul katamu,
jahat itu sebati dgn ku,
krn aku kau menjadi mangsa,
krn aku kau terjebak,
sakit ku rasakn bla kau nyataknnya,
terasa hancur luluh parah bla mendgrnya,
tp e2 adlh diriku.. kekuranganku..
ku tabahi diriku..

ku bediam diri..
maaf ku pinta andainya dikau terasa..
aku tlah mengecewakn dikau..
sebaiknya..biarlah aku mengundurkn diriku dr hidupmu
setialah pd yg stu..

The New Me~

helow..
aq org bru d sni..
aq lom taw g cmna nk wt blog nei..
arap besabar ea..

mlm ni aq x tido kowt
aq nk tdo jam 5pg kot
klas jam 2pm..
huhu...
testing2..:)